I feel like I've been in a bit of a funk lately. It comes and goes, but always seems to be underlying. I don't know why. It's putting a bit of a strain between Matt and I, which is just not cool. I think it is just the stress of having two kids and working full time.
I'm having a tough time finding the balance. I'm having a tough time staying present and enjoying life. I feel like I spend a lot of time either "planning" or "doing", and that I can't just relax. I really need to work on this, cause I think it's just making me cranky. I'm finding that the yoga does help, but I don't have enough time to do it more than once a week. I know that the first year of having a baby is the hardest one (at least it was the first time around), and that this will pass....but I really just want to snap out of it. I'm TRYING...I really am. What I can't figure out is WHY I'm not happier than I am. I should be. I have an awesome husband (who puts up with a lot of my crap!), two really great kids, a job that I really like, a nice house, etc. These things should add up to elation, right? Maybe I just need some sleep and perspective. Maybe I should just stop complaining.
SO...on a happier note, the kids and I had a great day on Friday. It was warm outside, and a little water play was called for. They loved it. I love watching them "play" together. Those moments really are the best of times.
Bathing suit beauty
My sweet and happy boy
Happy kids in the pool