When I'm busy, I get stressed because I feel like I have too much to do.
When I'm idle, I get antsy if I don't have something to do.
I guess that as an adult, it's easy to lose the ability to "play" and forget about everyday adult concerns.
Please. Let me re-learn the fine art of relaxation. Let me stop trying to plan and schedule each waking moment. Let me enjoy the day as it comes.
I worked on it this weekend, and feel like I succeeded. On Saturday afternoon, Matt took Cy to the movies, and I had some free time with Lu. We just relaxed and "played". After they returned, Matt and I were actually able to sit outside and drink a beer while we talked and let the kids play. It was really nice....relaxing, even!
While Lu had a long nap on Sunday morning, I spent some lovely leisure time playing with Cy. It felt easy and fun. I think he enjoyed it even more than I did. Earlier in the morning, I gave him a few options for what to "do" that day, and he chose "stay home and play". It's funny how in-tune kids are.
I don't know why it should take conscious effort on my part to relax. Seems contrary.