I can't seem to crawl out of this FUNK. Somedays are better than others, and today is a rough one. The best way to describe how I'm feeling is "Frazzled". I wish I could just pull it together. I have been up since 5:11am this morning, and that is not helping AT ALL.
There is no one thing that is getting to me, it really is just a compilation of these:
1- My son has been going through a rough stage of hitting and biting, and its really starting to get to me. I feel like I should be able to control him, and I can't. Punishment works sometimes, but not always. There are times when he lashes out for seemingly no reason, no frustration, no anger. I just don't get it. I feel helpless with this sometimes. Its embarrassing and annoying all at the same time. I had to skip out on playgroup this weekend cause I just couldn't deal with having to "deal" with him. That makes me feel even more pathetic.
2- I feel like this wrist situation is never going to have resolution. One day I need surgery, the next day, I might not, who knows when this will be over. I'm tired of being casted, I'm ready to move on from this, but I can't. I wish there were an endpoint in sight, and at this time, there is not.
3- I'm starting to really feel the "having a second child" crunch. Its becoming an issue because my husband is very interested (90% so, according to him), and I'm very UNinterested (95% so, using the same scale). So, we have a lot of negotiations coming our way, and its messing with my head. I don't know how to make the "right" decision for us when we are at polar ends. We have never been on such opposites sides of a topic before, and it feels stressful. I have no idea how to resolve this, and its on my mind. Alot.
All of this stuff just goes around and around in my head, and I start to feel "frazzled". I'm fine,though. No worries here....I think its all just normal life stuff. Can't be all roses, right?